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Essay / The Ticking Watch - 1535
She sat awkwardly with her ankles crossed, frequently glancing at her left hand. Was she early or was he late? Her impeccably manicured nails tapped nervously on the half-empty glass of lipstick-stained chardonnay. “Another glass of wine, ma’am?” the waiter said, nodding condescendingly. With a fake smile and a nod, she pushed him away and returned to her job of busily waiting for her date to arrive. Around his table, the restaurant hummed with the gentle sounds of chatter and laughter accompanied by the gentle tunes of the jazz quartet playing in the corner. But all she heard was the persistent beat of her ticking watch. Feeling somewhat nervous, she took another sip of her chardonnay and readjusted the clip in her hair, which actually didn't change her appearance but brought a sense of satisfaction to her face. Couples were all around the restaurant, surrounding his table. She leaned back a little in her chair so as not to draw attention to herself and the empty seat in front of her. The only thing that brought comfort was the exciting possibility of rekindling a past love. It had been a while since her last date, but the fact that she was seeing her ex-husband tonight made things a little less scary. She was over the moon when he called her to set up the meeting, in fact, she longed for the security of a relationship again. It's not that she liked cleaning and serving or even cooking for the man, but she liked being needed. It had to be necessary. For this reason, the separation had been very difficult to deal with and to temporarily fill this void, during her separation she had become increasingly dependent on others in her life. She would often confide in her close friends about these relationship blues, or she would confide in her not-so-close friends. In fact, just about everyone who listened to him confided. His therapist summed it up like this: "Depression: You are entering a difficult stage in your life, it is completely natural for you to feel so needy." His Chinese acupuncturist concluded: “Your yin and yang need balance! No balance means great upheaval. And her accountant said that, given her financial situation, he wasn't surprised she wanted a husband again. Oddly enough, none of these answers seemed correct.