Esther's suicide attempts in The Bell JarOne of the main reasons Esther attempted suicide was because of how she perceived the her mother's actions and the fact that she hates her mother: "I hate her," I say, waiting for the blow to fall. "She obviously believes that hating her mother is wrong, as she expected the doctor to react negatively to her comment. Throughout the novel, her mother has contributed to Esther's problems. From Esther's point of view Esther, the consequences of her mother's actions caused her further problems. It was her mother who refused Esther the right to attend her father's funeral: “My mother wouldn't let us attend his funeral. because we were just kids then and he had died in the hospital, so the cemetery and even his death seemed unreal to me” Contributing to this was the fact that Esther couldn’t really accept her father’s death. career problems: she didn't know what to do with her life, she "thought that if my father hadn't died, he would have taught me....`Before visiting New York and setting out into the world In reality, Esther had experienced very good academic results:`I had already taken a botany course and I had done very well. I never answered a single test question wrong all year. "Because of her perfectionist attitude, Esther was surprised to be told that she didn't know what her career plans were: "Usually, I had these plans on the tip of my tongue. I don't really know," I heard myself say. I felt a deep shock hearing myself say that, because as soon as I said it, I knew it was true. e-letters made me close my mind like a clam Esther associates this language with her "German-speaking father", from a manic-depressive hamlet in the dark heart of Prussia I think Esther's current hit is directly. linked to the death of her father and how little she knows about him, and that a major contributing factor to her eventual suicide attempt is the fact that she was the best and can no longer be the best as well. the death of his father to his happiness: “I was only purely happy until the age of nine after that - despite the Girl Scouts and the piano lessons..