The first part is Absurdity and Suicide which implements the main question of life, which is suicide. Obviously, Clamence doesn't commit suicide, so the assumption that he thinks life is worth living is valid. But this thought actually crosses his conscious mind when he realizes he has no friends. Camus declares: “I discovered it the day I thought about committing suicide to play a trick on them, to punish them, in a way. But punish who? Some would be surprised, and no one would feel punished. friends” (Camus 59). The idea of ​​committing suicide as a joke is not only questionable, but it concerns the first main step of absurd reasoning. The fact that death is the only certainty in life has not yet crossed Clamence's mind speaks volumes. The only thing stopping him from killing himself is the sad realization that no one would be there to care. For Clamence to proceed with any type of response, there must be some positive comments, otherwise Clamence will not make any effort. Being able to find meaning in others is what keeps him going, but all of Clamence's actions require precise motivation. He never does anything without receiving some type of return for his efforts. Uncertainty is not something Clamence particularly likes, as it could potentially ruin his self-image. He considers life as a game and draws everyone he meets into his little game, which he calls life. Clamence traps himself only with his absurd walls and never seeks to overcome them; he is really afraid of the uncertainty as he runs away towards